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the moment of loss

Wednesday, August 15th, 2012

I’ve experienced loss in my life and it’s changed me in ways I never realized it could. No loss is ever easy but it seems that there may be circumstances that can make it easier to handle. Today I was witness to a loss that had nothing to make it easier. It wasn’t even my loss but it shook me to my core.

Today, one of the most darling, full-of-life, vibrant ladies I know received the devastating news that the man she loves was killed in active duty in Afghanistan. To watch her was near crippling. It was tragic. I have never heard such heart-wrenching loss with my own ears. Any words to try and describe it sound hollow so all I can say is simply this; life is precious. So very precious that we cannot afford to waste a single moment. 

My heart goes out to her and both of their families.

{inspired} lucille ball

Saturday, July 21st, 2012

People who inspire…

this crazy life

Friday, July 20th, 2012

Today is arguably the craziest day of the entire year at work. My feet are sore & my eyes are tired. I was there for 14 hours. One of my assistants got promoted two weeks ago and her replacement hasn’t started yet. My other assistant told me he had “made a professional life decision to leave management” in the middle of the day today, the busiest day of our entire year. Yeah. That was today. There wasn’t anything else to do but laugh!

But — it was AWESOME. I mean, seriously awesome. I am blessed to work with some people who are truly amazing. Somehow and I’m not quite sure how, we achieved what felt practically impossible this morning and I am so thankful. Plus – I was able to visit with a very dear friend who I haven’t seen for years. It was refreshing and inspiring and I can’t tell you how much it brightened my day!

I come home, watch the river and enjoy some bubbles & pizza. I can’t wait for Zack to get home so I can tell him all about my crazy day. There is a certain amount of satisfaction in feeling absolutely beat at the end of the day when you know you have accomplished something so I just enjoy it. Then I’ll sleep (I hope!) and do it all over again tomorrow.

words.

Friday, July 20th, 2012

Inspiring. Shared with me by my friend Siobhain. 

time to breathe

Friday, July 13th, 2012

For most people, summer means vacation. Time to get away with friends & family. Weekends filled with camping & music festivals & days floating the river. For me, summer (especially June & July) means CRAZY days at work. I can’t even count the number of barbeque’s, weekend trips, and pool days I’ve missed out on because this is one of the few times of the year when I simply can’t miss work. Accountants have tax season, I have sale season. 

While it would be easy to get caught up in the “missing out” on stuff, I think for the most part I’ve found a way to find balance. To “work to live and not live to work” as they say. Still… there are times when I just have to be at work rather than at play. Tonight I came home after 30 hours of work in the last 3 days, feet blistered, energy low to an empty house. Z is at one of the earlier mentioned BBQ’s celebrating a friend’s birthday and although I would of course love to be celebrating with everyone I am quite content to be at home, alone. 

The summer evening is warm and our patio is the perfect place to enjoy the weather. I watch the river & listen to the trains as the solar lanterns slowly brighten, daylight disappearing. My favorite iPod playlist is on just a little bit too loud and I have time to breathe. To hear myself think. To have a little separation from the chaos. All day I talk, I listen, I smile. I have to be “on”. The stillness of a summer night and the comfort of much-loved music is pure rejuvenation.

Tonight, I am thankful for the quiet. Time to be alone, to be still, to reflect. Tomorrow I’ll surely be back to my ways as a little social butterfly but tonight I have nobody to entertain but myself.